Trauma (Explicit) - BoyWithUke
Lyrics by：BoyWithUke
Composed by：BoyWithUke
Produced by：BoyWithUke
Growing up I never had a lot of money
从小到大 我一直都不富裕
I never had a phone always was a little hungry
从未拥有过手机 肚子总有点饿
Used to find it hard to sleep when I could hear my mother sobbing
每次听到母亲啜泣 我便难以入睡
I was 10 back then
那时我才十岁
I didn't have a room had to buy used shoes
那时我没有自己的房间 只能买别人穿过的鞋
I hid behind tunes to avoid abuse
音乐是我的避难所 让我免受欺负
And every time I fell I would blame it on myself
每一次受伤 我都觉得是自己的错
Even if it was an accident
即便那只是意外而已
Maybe it's not what I want
也许这不是我想要的生活
Oh I've seen better days
我曾享受过幸福时光
And the moment ******* sucks
眼下却沉浸在痛苦之中
But I'll be damned if I don't stop
如果再不停下 我大概会犯下大错
And honestly why not
说实话 为什么还要继续呢
When nobody gives a ****
反正没有人真的在乎
But sometimes I just can't help myself
但有时我就是无法控制自己
I wanna give up trying and start doing something else
我想要放弃努力 干些别的事情
Sometimes I just get overwhelmed
但有时痛苦太过汹涌 将我淹没
I know it's in my mind
我知道都是胡思乱想在作祟
But I think I need some help
但是我想 我需要一点帮助
Sometimes I just can't help myself
有时我就是无法控制自己
I was an outcast
我被生活所抛起
Thrown out to dry and get laughed at
扔在路边干枯凋零 受尽嘲讽
Too shy to talk about home
太过羞涩 不敢谈起家这个话题
I always thought life was supposed to be cold
我总以为生活本就应该冰冷无比
And oh I've been so lost without hope
我早已失去了希望 迷茫不已
I got a window in my head it's a casket
我的脑子上有一扇窗 这就是一副棺材
You know I've been wishing I was dead but I mask it
我总是希望自己已经死去 但又把这悲伤掩藏
Maybe it's not what I want
也许这不是我想要的生活
Oh I've seen better days
我曾享受过幸福时光
And the moment ******* sucks
眼下却沉浸在痛苦之中
But I'll be damned if I don't stop
如果再不停下 我大概会犯下大错
And honestly why not
说实话 为什么还要继续呢
When nobody gives a ****
反正没有人真的在乎
But sometimes I just can't help myself
但有时我就是无法控制自己
I wanna give up trying and start doing something else
我想要放弃努力 干些别的事情
Sometimes I just get overwhelmed
但有时痛苦太过汹涌 将我淹没
I know it's in my mind
我知道都是胡思乱想在作祟
But I think I need some help
但是我想 我需要一点帮助
Because it's all I know my hands around my throat
因为我控制不住 用双手握住喉咙
Pray that I won't let go this time around
祈祷自己这一次不要放手
But every single time I try to shut my eyes
但每一次我想要永远闭上眼睛的时候
I see the reason why I'm not alone
我又明白过来 自己其实并不孤单
But sometimes I just can't but
但有时候我就是力不从心
But sometimes I just can't help myself
但有时我就是无法控制自己
I wanna give up trying and start doing something else
我想要放弃努力 干些别的事情
Sometimes I just get overwhelmed
但有时痛苦太过汹涌 将我淹没
I know it's in my mind
我知道都是胡思乱想在作祟
But I think I need some help
但是我想 我需要一点帮助
Sometimes I just can't help myself
有时我就是无法控制自己
I think we got it
我觉得这首歌录好了
