In My Mind - Amanda Palmer
In my mind
在我的脑海里
In a future five years from now
从今天起的未来五年里
I'm one hundred and twenty pounds
我重达120磅
And I never get hung over
但从没因此而感到难过
Because I will be the picture of discipline
因为我将会修炼自己
Never minding what state I'm in
不要担心我的处境
And I will be someone I admire
我将成为自己钦佩的人
And it's funny how I imagined
想想这多么滑稽
That I would be that person now
但现在我将成为那样的人
But it does not seem to have happened
但目前看来似乎不太现实
Maybe I've just forgotten how to see
或许我忘记了如何去看待这一切
That I am not exactly the person that I thought I'd be
我不是那个自己曾以为会成为的人
And in my mind
在我的脑海里
In the faraway here and now
此时此刻此地都变得很遥远
I've become in control somehow
无论如何我已受控制
And I never lose my wallet
我不会丢掉钱包
Because I will be the picture of discipline
因为我将修炼自己
Never f**king up anything
绝不破坏任何东西
And I'll be a good defensive driver
我会成为一个优秀的防御性驾驶者
And it's funny how I imagined
想想这多么滑稽
That I would be that person now
现在我将成为那样的人
But it does not seem to have happened
但目前看来似乎不太现实
Maybe I've just forgotten how to see
或许我忘记了如何去看待这一切
That I'll never be the person that I thought I'd be
我绝不是那个自己曾以为会成为的人
And in my mind
在我的脑海里
When I'm old I am beautiful
当我年迈时我还很漂亮
Planting tulips and vegetables
种着郁金香和各类蔬菜
Which I will mindfully watch over
并精心照看它们
Not like me now
不像我现在
I'm so busy with everything
忙于事情本身
That I don't look at anything
但缺乏用心呵护
But I'm sure I'll look when I am older
但我保证当我年迈时会这样做
And it's funny how I imagined
想想这多么滑稽
That I could be that person now
现在我要成为那样的人
But that's not what I want
但那并不是我想要的结果
But that's what I wanted
这才是我想要的
And I'd be giving up somehow
无论如何我要放弃了
How strange to see
这看起来多么奇怪
That I don't wanna be the person that I want to be
我不想变成自己一直想要成为的人
And in my mind
在我的脑海里
I imagine so many things
我想了很多事情
Things that aren't really happening
很多并不是真正发生的事情
And when they put me in the ground
当他们将我塞进地面下
I'll start pounding the lid
我开始猛击上面的盖子
Saying I haven't finished yet
并说着我还没有完成
I still have a tattoo to get
我还要做一个纹身
That says I'm living in the moment
这说明我现在还活着
And it's funny how I imagined
想想这多么滑稽
That I could win this win this fight
我会赢 赢得这场战争
But maybe it isn't all that funny
但或许这一点都不滑稽
That I've been fighting all my life
我的生活一直处于斗争中
But maybe I have to think it's funny
但或许我必须认为这是滑稽的
If I wanna live before I die
如果我想要在死之前获得生机
And maybe it's funniest of all
或许这才是最滑稽的
To think I'll die before I actually see
在我真正看清一切之前我将死去
That I am exactly the person that I want to be
我就是自己一直想要成为的那个人
F**k yes
是的 该死
I am exactly the person that I want to be
我就是自己一直想要成为的那个人
